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During this I realized I'd spent a lot of time fantasizing about women over the years, I'd thought about men too but this was the first time I was realizing the fantasies about women were more than just random thoughts but parts of my sexuality that I'd been ignoring. I went on a personal journal, trying to figure out what it was, trying to understand my reactions. There were a ton of other women who were VERY interested, so I started wondering why I wasn't attracted. Then I met this seemingly great guy who asked me out: attractive, polite, funny, (employed lol) but I just had no interest in him sexually whatsoever. Partly I think it was because I slept with them too early, not on the 1st date but still, sooner than I was ready for. There have been times where I had to work really hard to get turned-on with a guy I was with, once I was there wasn't a problem, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I've never looked at a man and felt attracted to them like many women say they are.
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I came to the late realization that I am sexually attracted to women as well as men, I discovered this probably later than most when I was in my early 30s. This post might get a little ramble-y so I apologize in advance. I have been trying to figure out my sexuality for such a long time, I keep feeling my experience is not like the women around me and I'm still struggling to figure it out.